Today is an ordinary day...Braxton goes to school...I drop off Liv at 9am for preschool...back to my home office to TRY to gain some control over the chaos - home and work related! Lately I have been yearning for the simple things...the simple life, simple schedule, simple budget, simple work, simple home....I could go on and on! The more time passes, the more I see those simple things falling away and with them my sense of "measuring up". On most days, I measure myself according to how well behaved my children are (or how they are misbehaving :)), am I spending quality time with my loved ones, the chaos that is my house, have I paid my bills on time, am I getting my client jobs completed, etc...etc... All this leaves me feeling a bit inadequate, but then I read this:
"An ordinary day in the dark challenges my desire to perform perfectly. It demands recognition that who I am and what I struggle with are not the same thing. It constantly causes me to affirm my identity in God alone - not in what I can or cannot do. Darkness is benevolent in that way. It is what God uses to keep me acquainted with the liberating truth that I AM WHO HE SAYS I AM, NOT WHAT I LABEL MYSELF."
Written by Jennifer Rothschild, a wife and mother who also happens to be blind! While I am not blind, I connected with this so deeply. There are other issues in my life that "demand recognition" of who I am...I just have to remember to listen to the only voice that matters! Happy Thursday!