So pretend this is Thursday, September 9th...

It has been a busy week...lots going on - feeling more and more like myself again! Still not back to blogging daily but in the big picture...that's okay! But just for today, lets pretend it is last Thursday, September 9, 2010...a very good day - because my Olivia turned 5!!!! We had a great day at home...just the two of us (well, my dad stopped by for a couple of hours to eat lunch with us and bring a birthday present which made the day even more special) We are not officially having her party until next Saturday...but I did want to express how very much this little girl means to me! She was a blessing...a very happy, healing blessing after the miscarriage of our second child. She came into this world full force - didn't even want to wait for the doctor to say "PUSH"....independent and funny in so many ways! So happy birthday to you my Liv...this poem makes me think of you....

I carry your heart with me

by e.e. cummings

I carry your heart with me - I carry it in my heart

I am never without it - anywhere I go you go, my dear; and whatever is done by only me is your doing, my darling... I fear

No fate - for you are my fate, my sweet

I want no world - for beautiful you are my world, my true...and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant and whatever a sun will always sing is you.

Here is the deepest secret nobody knows - here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud and the sky of the sky of a tree called life; which grows higher than soul can hope or mind can hide...and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart

I carry your heart - I carry it in my heart!